i was just sitting at my computer at work and up pops a chat from mr. brammer that says:

http://www.chasebrammer.com/linds.html

so i click on it, thinking it will be a fun new band that he wants me to try out.

but instead it was a little mini website that he made to tell me that he loved me.

i’m a very sharing person, so feel free to click on the link and check out what a stud i have for a husband. 

so there i was, still having 40 minutes until work ended, and thinking “ok i can control my emotions.  nothing in this book can make me more sad than what i just read”

and i pick it back up and start reading.

it has now been 20 minutes since then, and i’m over here having a silet sob-fest.  i’m just praying that none of my coworkers decide to leave their seats and see me having a breakdown over here.  and i especially hope no clients call in, because the breaking in my voice would sure be enough to get me fired. probably.

that book is sad.  a happy kind of sad.  but mostly sad.

i am such a girl.

why is it that my eyes decide to cry at the complete wrong times?

today, it was at work.  because i decided to use my spare time reading a book that i was in the middle of.   a stupid crappy wonderful book called “at first sight” by nicholas sparks.

it’s about a man who falls in love with a girl.  the struggles they go through in engagement, marriage and pregnancy.  and how his wife dies during childbirth.

but the part that really gets me is the lines that say of how he didn’t want to see his baby girl in the nursery.  he didn’t love her.  he didn’t care about her.  how could he love a baby that killed his wife?

and that is when i put the book down, felt like an idiot as i wiped a tear at my desk, and hoped that no one had seen me.

i will probably finish this book at home.  sheesh.

there are A LOT of fun things going on at our home right now, but i have neither the time or desire to write about them all right now.

maybe in a few weeks

i usually blog at work, but lately i’ve been really busy and haven’t had much time to do that, and after work all i want to do it sleep.  so until the energy level rises, i’m saying good-bye from blogging for a bit.